Nine Months!!!

Wow I can not even believe that I am at nine months waiting! For some reason this really feels like a milestone to me...much more than every month hit. I find that people are asking a lot recently about timelines and although I try to explain the long wait they do not seem to understand :) I hope that referral times speed up but for now am expecting a much, much, much longer wait.

This month went by really fast. I headed to England with my parents and sister which was nice. It has been a long time since the whole family took a trip together so it was nice to see everyone. We did some touring around and visiting much of my extended family. I had not been since 1997 so it was nice to see everyone again and explore. I found myself purchasing a few baby things while I was there (which I had not really done prior) as I could not resist :) I also found myself thinking a lot about my future child and the trip to Ethiopia. It is hard to not be excited or think about it but on the other hand it is hard to think about it :) I know people all say that the wait seems not so bad once you get a referral.

In the meantime it is exciting to see those who have waited so long get their referrals, pass court and hopefully travel soon! I hope the beginning of this month brings good news for everyone. What a great Christmas present it would be for people!

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Today was filled with mixed emotions for me. I was in a baby store (yes probably not a great idea!) and I was so excited about being a mom. Then I thought - man this process is long! Wouldn't it be nice if we only had to wait the 9 months like those excepting a biological child :) I know once I get a referral all the waiting will just fade away but for today I find it hard. It is funny because I expected the longest wait when I started hoping that would make it not so hard....but the reality...it is HARD! I would have to say the one thing that helps in this process is being able to follow everyone elses blogs and their experiences as that makes it feel real! That is the end of my rant....one side is so excited to be a mom and feels like this is getting closer - the other side feels like it is forever away!